happy, sad, relief, disspointed week, everything is rojak!!

There are always up and down in life, and i had lots of them last week.....but thank god, it's all over now...i hope! of cos they are people out there that suffer more than i did, all this matters are just one minor little part that happens in our teenage life. like my last post, i did had a wonderful burfday and oso valentine's day, eventhough i dont have a valentine...which was fine with me, because of the problem i was facing, i was so much happier spending it with all my friends....and then grandma went into hospital(mom side) cuz of stroke, thank god nothing serious happened to her, and hope she get well soon!!:-) beside that nothing much happened. Just the friendship problem, grandma went in hospital and oh ya!! yun hsi spent me for my burfday as a gift....cool huh? hehe...

I was in skul on sat, just for the fun of it...yea, i noe thats so stupid.....so i stayed and help a bit with the PIBG thingy which was smtg so boring...after that i went to the hospital to visit grandma as it was so much nearer than going from home again later... luckily it wasnt that hard to find the place, or else i'll be lost in the hospital, dad was bz so didnt want him to rush and go with me...see wat a sweet doter i am? cheh! so perasan....haha. So after that i went to SS2 along with yun hsi with the bus, then when we were in SS2, chea hwey msg, sad thing cant get to meet her....kinda miss the ex form 5, wonder why...hahaha! chea hwey, i still dont get it, u took care of ur hammies for so long edi, more than a year right? how can u NOT know it was a 'he'??? hahahaha!! yea, back to my boring story! where was i? we went to had lunch at the chinese stalls, later after that we both went to Swensen, hmmmm....guess so u noe wat we had there?? ice-cream....yummy!!! i had ice house and yun hsi had dunno wat..haha, it was really yummy.....so we took our own sweet time and enjoyed the ice-cream and chat along... i think we spent about an hour and the half there....haha, after that he was like saying, want to go for third round? i was like...stoning there and said, where? secret recipe...i couldnt even eat anymore...so fine, we continue sitting and chit chatting away, after that once we both can eat again, we went to secret recipe, yea i noe!!! all this ice-cream and cakes are gonna make me fat.....haih, exercise more!!! hahahaha....but i did enjoyed my day on sat....after that we were on the way to the bus stop, saw seh yung and the mom, yeah! got free ride home.....haha, after that, we went for basketball didnt want to go one as someone was there didnt want him to feel uncomfortable, but yun hsi insisted....fine lor...played for a while, rained...looks like it was meant to be this way, so we went to mamak and sit while waiting for the rain to stopped. after that went home...:-)

it's sad to see that things has to end up this way, i know u want things to be normal again, too bad it's not gonna happen, i'm tired of playing this dumb game with u, its really childish, people may say i'm being really mean to say all this hurtful things to u, but think about it, put urself in my position, how will u feel? i tried to be ur friend, but being a friend there is always a border line, never try passing it, as u've already did few times ago....u know u've done a mistake but why repeat it again? u know that by doing wat u did, things will definately be different and we will be acting cold all over again, even if the both of us don't get tired of it, all our friends around us are tired advicing us and being a listener to our problems, sometimes i dont even wanna say about it, but this time, i really cant take it anymore longer, u know that i'm the kind of person who wants things to be simple, but each time we solved our problem, after a while it will return again, to be honest...if u want a friend, i'll try my best to be there for u, but if u want something more than a friend can give, i'm sorry u got the wrong fella. I know its damm hard for u to get over it, but somehow u have too, u have no choice, u dont expect me to change class or skul just for u to get over it, if u keep on turning back to look at the past, the memories that we had, and soon after that u'll feel sad all over again, u'll never move on with life!! take it as an experience, and go on....i'm sure u have heard of this for many times, from me, or whoever. but ur actions has dissapoint made me really dissapointed with u, u wanted me to be ur friend, i told u before let's rebuild the friendship we had, i took the step to concern about u, to say hi to u, to ask how r u? i know sometimes i dont....thats because i get tired too, and i always get worry if i say the wrong thing or made the wrong move that will make u sensitive or something, so i'll just stay quiet, but that doesnt mean i'm not ur friend. yesterday u said that its all up to me now whether we are friends or not, seriously i don't know....i dunno whether i consider u as a friend of mine or not, maybe one fine day, we'll talk to each other again, but for now....i really have nothing to talk to u, i'm not gonna say sorry to u again, as i don't think its my fault this time.....u may feel guilty now and feel very bad about wat u did, but u cant turned back time to fixed it again, u wanna fixed it again like wat we did last time, do u think we can? u said for now, let time decide everything, time is gonna continue counting, it wont stop to wait for u to solve ur problems or watever, it may do a little help, but u urself have to do something about it. but for now...i dont think u got much to do as i dunno wat am i suppose to do with u too, so for now....i dont feel like talking to u, there are more sad things to remember when i was being friend with u than happy moments....sorry to say that, i'm sure i hurt u a lot too, but i dont care this time, maybe for once i have to be more harsh on this matter.....the end of this story, it has been too long and too frustrating, after talking to u yesterday, i felt relief as i had been keeping it for days, tried to forget about it and continue being friends with u act as if nothing happen but i couldn't.....

Best Birthday ever!!!

Yesterday was one of the most wonderful day i had this year!! seriously!! i had the best time of my life, if u dont noe wat day was yesterday....let me tell u, its Feb 15! hahaha....come on, my title edi told u wat day is it la...

i'm actually not in a mood to write the blog now, tell u why next day....all i wanna say is, i luv all my frends!! and no figure or anything can replace that....for everything u guys did for me, i never had a birthday as awesome as this year...syaza made me a cake for birthday, how sweet of her, then went to secret recipe with yun hsi, kar mun, theo, chen lam, wan pin, siew hong, alena, boon aik and jia yuan to celebrate....it was nice, they sang me birthday song, which i think was the cause of the heavy rain yesterday, hahaha! the cake was nice too....but the sad news was, went home fully wet...haih! on birthday...hahaha! then went out to victoria station with dad for dinner, the lamb was so yummy!!! now oso hungry edi....got lots of cows this year...lol. to be continue...gtg to bed edi, damm tired....

UpdaTes....

i'm back to update my little blog here, sorry bout the late updates ppl....just felt lazy to key in things thats going on.....ok, let's begin....what has been going on lately? I think the last few days nothing much has been having beside Ale's burfday, Pn.Bong's sad but true announcement, and a mistake that made things different.....we shall start with Ale's burfday!

Ale's burfday was on the 9 Feb, which was last thursday, sadly i didn't get her something which make me feel kinda guilty, but it's ok...promised her i'll get her something once i'm free to go shopping, but the least that i can do was to send her a sms at 12+, which was lucky she was still awake or else she's gonna scold me for waking her up from her beautiful sleep...hehehe. what else happen that day, dont quite remember, sorry.....:P

As for Pn. Bong's sad announcement, which was something that really made me sad and angry at the same time. Oh! didn't realise that it happen on the same day, which is on 9 Feb, we had 2 period of bio class just before recess, and we were doing experiment on that day, after teacher explain bout the experiment and stuff, then she said....be quiet when ur doing experiment, or else u'll regret it, most of us was kinda blur at that time and felt weird bout why did she say that. then after that she said, please remind me to tell u guys bout the announcement later. then everyone start to ask around, what annoucement? what announcement? then while doing experiment, i thought about what teacher wanted to tell us? then i thought maybe teacher was gonna leave us or smtg...and i dont want that to come true!! so while doing the experiment a few of us when and ask teacher wat was the announcement, and ask if she was leaving or smtg? but she said no....after that she said, to some of u it may be a happy thing and to some of u it may be a sad thing but dont worry, u'll noe it after class end....So after class, we were all eagerly wanted to know about the news, so we settled down and teacher started her talking. From next week onwards I won't be teaching this class anymore, another teacher will take over ur class. Obviously all of us was shocked and started asking why and stuff?!! then she said, sorry bout it, i luv to teach ur class too, but its not my choice is not in my hand. So take care, study hard and good luck in ur future! then end of class, after hearing bout the news, i didn't know what to do. I just walked back to class feeling angry bout why they had to do this to my class! and didnt say a single word after that, just went for duty as usual and kept quiet...i was jealous over 5A, angry towards pengetua, and just didnt like the mood i had during that time. It was just so sucky! Thinking bout why does 5A gets all the good teachers? And we get all the sucky teacher! it felt so unfair how they arrange the teachers for each class. Pn. Bong was the only best science teacher our class had and we luv her to bits! and they took our best teacher, besides from Pn. Sarala, Mr. Elvin and Pn.Salmiah...Of all the teachers, WHY PN.BONG??? WHY HER??? why can't they just take Mr. Ng or Manjeet or Mek Leng? WHY PN. BONG?? Last year, everything was fine till they closed down our class, 4C. and this year, everything was perfectly fine, till thursday they changed it all.....argh!!! but wat can i do? still have to study right? SPM!! but i'll get over it, eventhough i still feel sad about it, but changed has been made, and things aren't turning back! so why look back....? right?

As for the mistake thingy, i cant tell it on the blog....just say that people make mistakes, and i'm sorry that my weakness made this mistake. i blame no one for it but myself....maybe what A said was right, i'm avoiding B and that makes me feel weird and all....i'll try my best to be myself and enjoy the things we shared, spent together and everything and it will be fine i hope so.....

Yesterday was not bad, eventhough i was stuck in skul for few hours because of the rain...skul was fine. we had pj, yea...it was really fun! especially with pn.maha being ur pj teacher...haha. after that we had sej, wat surprise me is that, i luv sej this year.....maybe cuz i study bout it more than the last 2 years...haha!! then everyone was being good girls and boys concentrating to wat teacher was teaching, then two fella ruined it! they were doing their kimia peka, and teacher saw, so teacher took their book, and teacher got angry saying if u ppl dont wanna study then just leave the class, and then dunno what she said, asking if one of them if their gonna leave the class, or else she's gonna leave the class, and they didnt make a sinlge move, so she pack her bag and say GOODBYE!! wat the hell wei...everyone was so good...that two ruined it all! haih...then BM, the sleepy class....let's just say our class made Pn Tan's temperature went up cuz no one did oral, or prepare their oral...in the end we had to do, cuz she's on fire edi...haha! after that recess, as usual nth happen! peaceful like always...i think... then physics, who give a damm on that teacher. then skul end. then dpa, jolyne, kar mun, chen lam, alena, and a few others including me was stuck in skul. but it was pretty fun as we spend some times together. then went home at 6 i think, kar mun's mom came, so ale, dpa and i followed her home. hehe....then went for tuition at 7. then came home around 10. then online till 12....~the end~

As for today, woke up at 7.30, damm early right? it's saturday and suppose to be cow's best day to sleep....haha! but had no choice, gtg to skul to open the den for laura to put somethings, then wanted to go home then interact had some valentine's day project to do, so stayed back and help la...before that i haven had my breakfast so went to paandi with bernie and laura...hehe, on our way saw jy, cl, theo, yun hsi thats all i think...then jy joined us in paandi the rest went home...then after that stayed in skul till 1pm. when home.....S-L-E-E-P!!!!! hahaha till 6.30...then had dinner and all, went to yun hsi's hse to study for half an hour then went to church to meet kar mun, henry and jy, they had some valentine's day dinner. and the rest of the ppl from the church. Got my prezzie from kk, it's a cow!! really cute one...thx kk! then vicki told me that emilia came for the dinner too, but she just went back just before i came....:( i miss her!! and i missed my chance of seeing her....nvm lor, another time! thats all for the day....too long edi!!

*Hope u guys dont get blur reading it, especially u pei jie....haha!! bye ppl....:D

last day of holiday..

So fast 9 days of holiday gone edi....didnt do much again during the holiday, beside from eating, sleeping, shitting and thinking, i dont think i did much....haihz...anyway, nothing much happen this chinese new year, just go to ppl's hse for open hse, get more ang paus....hahaha! go grandma's hse, go cousin's hse...stay home thats it....yesterday morning i was in skul with the BOD, painting the BOD room, actually its fun and at the same time boring, maybe cuz with the ppl i was working with, thank God got Jojo to entertain me....haha, she's always my entertainment, wats the entertainment cant tell....i'll just keep it to myself, then left around 12+, siew hong and dpa came to skul, actually it was suppose to be only Siew hong and i, go get QM stuff, then dpa said she was bored so she came along....haha, so we went to Paandi to have lunch, we spent more time there than buying things...hahaha, consider the QM's are updating themselves, then left for home around 3, dpa followed me home, gotta use the com, as for me...i went n sleep, hahahaha!! then went to seh yung's open hse at 6... came home around 10....see how good girl i am!! muahahaha...then today, woke up at 10.30 again!! die lor, everyday wake up that hour...then quicky iron my uniform, do my homework, yea, last minute work again...haha, then went to cousin's hse for dinner, the young one went there earlier...then stayed until 10, rush home, was suppose to send jojo the paperwork, but by the time i came home it was already passed 1030, she left edi..nvm lor, pray hard we dont laugh like mad again 2moro.....hahahaha. thats it ppl, not really free actually, still got things to do, which is SLEEP!! haha, skul start 2moro, dont wanna be late for skul....have a nice day 2moro ppl....:D