happy, sad, relief, disspointed week, everything is rojak!!

There are always up and down in life, and i had lots of them last week.....but thank god, it's all over now...i hope! of cos they are people out there that suffer more than i did, all this matters are just one minor little part that happens in our teenage life. like my last post, i did had a wonderful burfday and oso valentine's day, eventhough i dont have a valentine...which was fine with me, because of the problem i was facing, i was so much happier spending it with all my friends....and then grandma went into hospital(mom side) cuz of stroke, thank god nothing serious happened to her, and hope she get well soon!!:-) beside that nothing much happened. Just the friendship problem, grandma went in hospital and oh ya!! yun hsi spent me for my burfday as a gift....cool huh? hehe...

I was in skul on sat, just for the fun of it...yea, i noe thats so stupid.....so i stayed and help a bit with the PIBG thingy which was smtg so boring...after that i went to the hospital to visit grandma as it was so much nearer than going from home again later... luckily it wasnt that hard to find the place, or else i'll be lost in the hospital, dad was bz so didnt want him to rush and go with me...see wat a sweet doter i am? cheh! so perasan....haha. So after that i went to SS2 along with yun hsi with the bus, then when we were in SS2, chea hwey msg, sad thing cant get to meet her....kinda miss the ex form 5, wonder why...hahaha! chea hwey, i still dont get it, u took care of ur hammies for so long edi, more than a year right? how can u NOT know it was a 'he'??? hahahaha!! yea, back to my boring story! where was i? we went to had lunch at the chinese stalls, later after that we both went to Swensen, hmmmm....guess so u noe wat we had there?? ice-cream....yummy!!! i had ice house and yun hsi had dunno wat..haha, it was really yummy.....so we took our own sweet time and enjoyed the ice-cream and chat along... i think we spent about an hour and the half there....haha, after that he was like saying, want to go for third round? i was like...stoning there and said, where? secret recipe...i couldnt even eat anymore...so fine, we continue sitting and chit chatting away, after that once we both can eat again, we went to secret recipe, yea i noe!!! all this ice-cream and cakes are gonna make me fat.....haih, exercise more!!! hahahaha....but i did enjoyed my day on sat....after that we were on the way to the bus stop, saw seh yung and the mom, yeah! got free ride home.....haha, after that, we went for basketball didnt want to go one as someone was there didnt want him to feel uncomfortable, but yun hsi insisted....fine lor...played for a while, rained...looks like it was meant to be this way, so we went to mamak and sit while waiting for the rain to stopped. after that went home...:-)

it's sad to see that things has to end up this way, i know u want things to be normal again, too bad it's not gonna happen, i'm tired of playing this dumb game with u, its really childish, people may say i'm being really mean to say all this hurtful things to u, but think about it, put urself in my position, how will u feel? i tried to be ur friend, but being a friend there is always a border line, never try passing it, as u've already did few times ago....u know u've done a mistake but why repeat it again? u know that by doing wat u did, things will definately be different and we will be acting cold all over again, even if the both of us don't get tired of it, all our friends around us are tired advicing us and being a listener to our problems, sometimes i dont even wanna say about it, but this time, i really cant take it anymore longer, u know that i'm the kind of person who wants things to be simple, but each time we solved our problem, after a while it will return again, to be honest...if u want a friend, i'll try my best to be there for u, but if u want something more than a friend can give, i'm sorry u got the wrong fella. I know its damm hard for u to get over it, but somehow u have too, u have no choice, u dont expect me to change class or skul just for u to get over it, if u keep on turning back to look at the past, the memories that we had, and soon after that u'll feel sad all over again, u'll never move on with life!! take it as an experience, and go on....i'm sure u have heard of this for many times, from me, or whoever. but ur actions has dissapoint made me really dissapointed with u, u wanted me to be ur friend, i told u before let's rebuild the friendship we had, i took the step to concern about u, to say hi to u, to ask how r u? i know sometimes i dont....thats because i get tired too, and i always get worry if i say the wrong thing or made the wrong move that will make u sensitive or something, so i'll just stay quiet, but that doesnt mean i'm not ur friend. yesterday u said that its all up to me now whether we are friends or not, seriously i don't know....i dunno whether i consider u as a friend of mine or not, maybe one fine day, we'll talk to each other again, but for now....i really have nothing to talk to u, i'm not gonna say sorry to u again, as i don't think its my fault this time.....u may feel guilty now and feel very bad about wat u did, but u cant turned back time to fixed it again, u wanna fixed it again like wat we did last time, do u think we can? u said for now, let time decide everything, time is gonna continue counting, it wont stop to wait for u to solve ur problems or watever, it may do a little help, but u urself have to do something about it. but for now...i dont think u got much to do as i dunno wat am i suppose to do with u too, so for now....i dont feel like talking to u, there are more sad things to remember when i was being friend with u than happy moments....sorry to say that, i'm sure i hurt u a lot too, but i dont care this time, maybe for once i have to be more harsh on this matter.....the end of this story, it has been too long and too frustrating, after talking to u yesterday, i felt relief as i had been keeping it for days, tried to forget about it and continue being friends with u act as if nothing happen but i couldn't.....