Am i?
Am i thinking too much? why suddenly i feel so far away from my friends? Am i thinking too much? why suddenly i feel like they have changed? or am i the one that changed? i know people change, but ....i dunno wat to say.... i dont even know whether i'm doing the right thing or not....For CL that case, i can't say anything bout it, it just somehow turns out that way.....its actually the same thing between me and him....he'll somehow act cold when he sees me, and i'll somehow shoot him whenever he says something.....i dunno why! It's not that i hate him or something, somehow it just did turn out this way!! everyone is telling me different kind of story, which one do u want me to believe, even he himself is telling me another kind of story.....all i can do is just listen. ok, lets quit that topic!
Just know a good fren of mine came online....as usual, we'll talk happily, then i ask her wat she wanna be after SPM? she said dunno, i told her......its time for u to think already, she say she will...i ask when? she said dunno...so i gave her a date line, which is this coming wednesday, but of cos we are talking online, i cant see how her reaction was, but come on....knew her so many years already, can figure out how her reaction can be right? this things need time to think la, u think one two days time can figure out one mer? yea, obviously u cant, but u had a long time, but u couldn't think of anything, so i gave her a date line, anyway, it just kinda make me feel sad, sometimes things are just like that huh, u were just trying to care for someone that means a lot to u, but yet....they dont take it seriously. i just felt weird at that moment.....as if like they didnt care about watever u have to say to them...yea, u may say thank you for the concern n stuff but somehow u just felt like it didnt really mean anything to them....can anyone tell me whether am i wasting my time caring for them? AM I? and i was talking to KM earlier on, i felt like we were so far away from each other, not like last time.....even dpa, i dunno wat the hell did i do? or am i thinking too much that it was my fault that she didn't wanna talk to me? or she had some other reason for it? sometimes, people may not know that a simple word, or sentence can hurt another person's feeling....it may not be their fault for saying so, they just did indirectly without them noticing that they did.... i was looking thru my contact list on msn to see who can i talk to, but there was no one....surprisingly not even KM this time, xen is no longer here to help me. who elsE?
Just know a good fren of mine came online....as usual, we'll talk happily, then i ask her wat she wanna be after SPM? she said dunno, i told her......its time for u to think already, she say she will...i ask when? she said dunno...so i gave her a date line, which is this coming wednesday, but of cos we are talking online, i cant see how her reaction was, but come on....knew her so many years already, can figure out how her reaction can be right? this things need time to think la, u think one two days time can figure out one mer? yea, obviously u cant, but u had a long time, but u couldn't think of anything, so i gave her a date line, anyway, it just kinda make me feel sad, sometimes things are just like that huh, u were just trying to care for someone that means a lot to u, but yet....they dont take it seriously. i just felt weird at that moment.....as if like they didnt care about watever u have to say to them...yea, u may say thank you for the concern n stuff but somehow u just felt like it didnt really mean anything to them....can anyone tell me whether am i wasting my time caring for them? AM I? and i was talking to KM earlier on, i felt like we were so far away from each other, not like last time.....even dpa, i dunno wat the hell did i do? or am i thinking too much that it was my fault that she didn't wanna talk to me? or she had some other reason for it? sometimes, people may not know that a simple word, or sentence can hurt another person's feeling....it may not be their fault for saying so, they just did indirectly without them noticing that they did.... i was looking thru my contact list on msn to see who can i talk to, but there was no one....surprisingly not even KM this time, xen is no longer here to help me. who elsE?
posted by -Yeang Shin- at
10:12 AM
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Email me your username & password for blogger k...
I check when I'm online. In fact, I have a folder for blogs in my Favourites.
Oh, I should probably recommend this blog.
XiaXue
She's a Singaporean. She's won Asian Blog of the Year or something a few times. Read her classics. Especially, Your Own CLK Driver!, My Evil Twin & Height Issues.
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I was once like your friend. (Just the part where I couldn't decide on what to do, of course.) But I had a few courses in mind.
Sometime in December last year, I went to HELP to check out their Mass Comm & Psychology courses.
FYI, HELP's Mass Comm course ain't too spiffy.
Then KDU was my second stop. Their Mass Comm course is much more established. Then I picked them.
What I'm trying to say is, it's good that you're reminding your friend to start thinking about this. There are people in the world that don't really know what they want in life. It's not like they have to decide immediately. No rush. Might as well focus on your SPM.
Yes, it's not a one-or-two-days-can-figure-out thing, but after your SPM, your should have ample time to think about it. That probably requires self-discipline because one could go party and whatnot, and forget about everything else.
My mum was always asking what I wanted to do and I would tell her "I don't know lar.". Then she would ask me to start thinking about it but I don't have to make my decision immediately. At least start thinking about it after SPM.
You should probably ask your friend whether she has anything on mind.
9 out of 10 of high schoolers have a high-school mindset. As in, laughing when you see two girls or two guys licking each other's lips, last minute work and so on. So, without doubt, and you have wrote, your friend would feel irritated when anyone asks her the "what do you want to do after SPM?" question. It will slowly come to her attention that this is an important step in life and bla bla bla.
But thank god for choices, we have A-Levels, SAM, Form 6 and so on.
She'll eventually decide on something. All you have to do is remind her. Like a guardian angel or some shit like that.
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CL thing leh, probably you two cannot see the wider picture? As in, you do not realize there's something better at the other side of the rainbow?
2:58 AM
hey, username-simpleordinary, password-551015. i'll check it out if i remember la k, anyway thx! don't worry bout it now....like u said, we'll just be by their side reminding them once in a while...:D, u wanted to take psychology course? and CL that thing, i dont really get wat u mean by something better at the other side of the rainbow? actually the problem isn't on me, somehow he just treats me cold n things like that, even if i do talk to him like old times, his reaction towards it is just somehow like that! haha....but his fine when he msg me...so how's college? going smooth? help me say hi to chea teing k? :D
5:42 AM
Woman! Do you not know what is security?! Or privacy?!
Lu mau mati ah?!
I know, I know. It's just a blog and bla bla bla. Nothing important stored. But better be safe than sorry ma...
Yes, I was thinking about taking Psych. But somehow the course itself didn't really make me feel so excited.
Cl leh, like when you talk to him nicely and friendly, he reacts coldly, I suppose/am positive, he 'tai mm hoi'<--canto = 'kan bu kai'<--mandarin = cannot let things go. Or maybe he's shy and doesn't know how to react with your history and all.
I got my first assignment today and it was so cold I was so sleepy. I didn't understand what the lecturer was trying to convey. Like, you know whatever she's saying lar, but you still don't get the main point behind all those things that she's said. Sucks like poo.
So what you wanna do after SPM ar? Take Mass Comm lar... in KDU....
6:02 AM
haha, i blur mar...i didnt read properly the word EMAIL me....haha, why not exciting? I noe how to read ur language la, dont have to put in canto and mandarin...haha. maybe lor...but sometimes his ok, dunno la, siao siao a bit. Most probably i'll be going to US after I finish SPM, not immediately la, but most probably thats where i'll go to continue my studies, i'm taking psychology....haha! thats why i ask u...Wat does Mass Comm do ar? i mean after u finish....
4:34 AM
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