Why is it so hard to understand?

Come on! is it really that hard to get watever i have said in the past? the end is the end....., go on with life, dont stay on with that hope, it will never come or return. I'm happy cuz there is someone who luv me this much but its not worth it....seriously! But i had make myself clear, now i dont wanna think about relationships just wanna do well in studies thats all.....after all i've said, suddenly its seems to be like it was just a waste of time telling! why won't he get it? i truly understand how Jo feels last time already, n i thought it was just a piece of cake.....sorry Jo! Ahhhh!!

:: Bz week, we were in skool almost the whole day, i mean skool hours la. Reach skool at 7am(sleepy) =) haha, but wat to do....juniors needed to do their checklist.....n that lazy siew hong dont wanna wake up! sleep n sleep at home! then did all the arranging stuff in the canteen, kinda dumb right? where in the world will someone wanna make the celebration in the canteen? And also Pn Fauziah and Cik Sukania's retirement, we got to move all the canteen tables front n back....just to make things right. some more they do it in the no fan area, hot like hell!! after everything, we went down to the den....then wat happen? oh, mun yi and jason was teasing each other, haha.....then alia said, u noe wat? ppl who always quarrel with each other, sooner or later one day the both of them will be come close fren..haha, next thing u know....jolyne is laughing non-stop there, then she said, like deepa n hyena.....haha! true right? then when jolyne n i was in the coh, i was looking thru the dictionary for our campfire theme, jolyne was doing her 'SCPL' work, n we were listening to chen lam's Ipod....then the ipod played "heaven knows" by rick price....i didnt realise anything bout the song's words until jolyne started laughing when we were listening to it....only i realise the lyrics was kinda like wat i'm going thru now....n oso cl la....then i told jolyne, thanks to u, i dont like this song anymore! then when the celebration began, we join in...but nth much la....another bz day 2moro, to me...its call donkeys job...no offence but it is!! so many other ppl dont call y call us to paint the walls.....haih! better stay home n sleep! no....! go patrol camp =) but anyway...going on the 10th, coming back on the 12th...then as for 13
, i dunno wat to do......khareeza's burfday is on the 14, hua wen's one on the 13 =) should i go on the 14? actually i dont feel like going, but....as a fren, i wanna go....but i cant be going out all the time, 17 going out already....wth! i have to control all my activities....or else thats it! and i'm broke! hahaha....so how to go out? thats it la......need to wake up early AGAIN 2moro!! aiyo.....i wanna SLEEP LA!!!! *sob sob*...haha!